Work out plan. For now until the end of December I’m going to keep doing my basic workout plan. To become comfortable with working out again and everything. So then after I’m hoping to get a gym card and start tryna bulk up. Not that much though, but yeah. This sounds weird . . Me talking about tryna bulk. Ehh, life doe. Whatever. I’m excited. Because I know Mike and Carl will join me. So It’ll be fun! hahaha.
I’m really excited to have a family of my own someday… I really want to have a close family.. ha..
the best person for me, having you in my life again.
That was really weird.. I was looking though my old photos on facebook and like… looking at them I was thinking, “Oh I was a kid.” Even though the image is only 3 years old.. Like, my mindset has developed a lot since then. Like, I am a lot more understanding on how the world works and.. I’m not sure.. I just feel young when I look at those pictures.. I feel like I’ve grown a lot. I don’t feel the same as I did when I was a kid. I put a lot more pressure on me. even with that, at times I know I don’t put enough pressure on myself when it comes to some things. Ahh, not sure what I’m getting at. I’ve… I’ve just grown quite a bit since high school ended. It’s weird.. I always thought I would be able to stay a kid forever, ya’ know? Like I’d always have that spark inside of me. Clearly I still do, but its diminishing I suppose. Responsibilities bro..
Learning about workouts, solid. Cool. Whatever, maybe I’ll try to add mass later in life yo’.
Time to type for myself;
Where do I start … Winter. Oh man, the fun season of winter! So, some of you may not know but winter gets me down. I enjoy how the snow looks covering everything, it’s absolutely beautiful and at times I can enjoy the atmosphere of winter, driving to a restaurant to meet up with friends and being in a cozy environment after being in the cold. But what does bring me down is that I always feel trapped. I love the warm where I can spend hours outside without having the pain of being cold, not being able to feel my nose, or my ears freezing. Winter traps me inside. Which I always find to be weird how I dislike that, I’ve always been into gaming and you think I would be like, “Ohh, cant go outside? Nice! Gunna get my game on bruhskis.” Nope… I get down during the winter. (I guess having a job where I work outside 35+ hours a week doesn’t help either..) Warm weather just provides me with many more freedoms than winter.
So… What does this mean? I’m going to have to get into my scheduling and what not again. I’m going to have to plan out my days better. and I’m going to have to follow this routine. Yup… I know it might sound lame, but I can already tell winter has gotten to me a little bit. It’s been about a week.. I like being able to wear a t shirt and thats it. Haha… I’m not sure man, winter … Just doesn’t sit well with me all the time. So… Going to try my best to make this winter unlike the one last year, because last year I hit the lowest I’ve ever been.. It was an awful winter, although I mean … It’s good I hit these lows.. Because it’s those times where I really only had myself to rely on, I placed everything on myself and I’ve grown a lot because of those times. Unfortunately I still place a lot on myself, I feel guilty a lot of the time. A lot of the time … . That itself could be a topic to talk about, but I don’t want to talk about that personal issue right now.
I need to get on an eating plan too. These last few days I’ve been just buying lunch at work. Spending $5 for a days meal.. I could cut that down to $1.50 per day if I start packing lunches.. So I need to start doing that. And I need to eat all my meals in good proportions. Because right now it’s like, eat small breakfast, have lunch at 1, and then have dinner at 10 because of work.. So it’s not healthy for me. I just need to get everything planned out. Yup. Also, with this I’m going to be adding more protein into my diet, because I want to take working out a bit more seriously. So yup.
Something I’m also noticing is that I need to be more open with my goals. It’s not healthy to keep them all in. My main goal as of now is to go to school at Mankato and that.. So hopefully I’m accepted. Man, I better be … I need to be … Not knowing is very stressful … But I don’t know what other goals I have. I’ve lost track of them, which is why I want to be open about them, write it all down. I remember I wanted to go climbing and all when winter comes around. So that’s why I want to take working out a bit more serious, I want to be in a decent shape so I can go out and do these adventures when the time comes around. I want to be ready for them. I just… I’ve just lost a bit of motivation with working a lot and winter starting up. So … today was a good reminder for me that nothing comes easy, I need to place more effort into these things.
It feels like I haven’t wrote like this in a while, something feels different about this post. So yup..
Sorry for all the people I was following, I don’t know what happened … My personal blog just randomly followed some people from my main blog. So.. I unfollowed all of you, because this blog isn’t meant for following people, sorry about that.
College is a lot like Mathematics for me; in school some teachers would always keep reminding us kids that if we don’t understand how and why a math problem works out how it does then you will never fully grasp the concept. That’s why it’s taken me so long to figure out what I wanted out of life. I used to take going to college as something that was required because of the pressure from everyone around me. This made me always feel like I had to know what I wanted to pursue, shunning the idea that you can do whatever your heart desires with your life after high school. I’ve had to fully understand why I should go to college; taking this time off has given me the chance to think for myself, ‘What do I want out of life?’. Letting me understand why I should go to college, if applicable, I can use college to pursue my happiness.
Yeah … I want to go to college for myself, not to prove anything, let pressure win, or to be rich. Yeah, I want to go to college for myself.
I haven’t made videos in a long time but I’ve been wanting to get back into it.
The first video idea I’ve come up with … a Challenge, who can gain the most twitter followers in 24 hours.
1v1, they both have to come up with a way to make the most followers, maybe running around campus with a sign, telling random people to follow them, and such like that. Who knows, maybe it could be a funny video to watch? Someone telling girls to follow him and they slap him? idfk. Public humiliation is always a hit on youtube.